This is my letter to the world, that it did not write for me.
— Emily Dickenson
what is beneath the blue nile?
Beneath the Blue Nile is about exploring the hidden parts of our selves that we often try to keep hidden. By acknowledging every aspect of who we are, and shining a light on how we came to be that way, therein lies the key to healing our deepest wounds and breaking our most destructive patterns.
This is my journey through complex trauma and grief, and how I found the strength to survive it all. If you’re reading this, I trust you were always meant to.
Elizabeth Gray, MSE
As we grow up, life presents us with situations and circumstances that get our emotional rivers flowing. For some, the average emotional experience may be joyful, predictable, and encouraging. Yet for others, it can be overwhelming, chaotic, and confusing.
Despite the unique context of our individual lives, the thread of likeness that holds all together, is that we all feel the same emotions.
Part 1:
The Emotional Experience
Part 2:
The Family Experience
To be alive means to be part of a family. Our earliest experiences mold us into the person we eventually become. The process of conditioning is slow and silent, and we won’t often recognize how our very earliest perceptions of the world, confirmed over and over again by life’s circumstances, could be the very thing keeping us stuck.
Recent studies have shown that by exploring family trauma over the past three generations, we can discover ways in which difficult patterns have resurfaced in our own lives. Through our self-discovery, we begin to heal our deepest wounds, turning our family ghosts into ancestral guides.
Part 3:
The Healing Experience
This is where it gets gooooood. This is where we give ourselves permission to examine all the stuff we’ve pulled up from deep, deep down. Rather than pretending the yucky stuff doesn’t exist, we begin the process of loving and accepting and forgiving all of it.
I won’t say it’s easy, and the emotions we’ve avoided the longest tend to leave us raw and exposed. But after all that, what’s waiting on other side, is everything you’ve been searching for, and it’s just so worth it.